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Guess what time I slept last night? To be exact, I didn't sleep last night. I slept this morning.

Not proud of it, neither did I not sleep on purpose. The double-decker bed didn't like me yesterday; it was kinda shaky. My brother just went, "Hmm good luck to you when you sleep! You can sleep in the living room if you want!" and climbed up sleeping soundly. 

To be frank, I am very sure the bed wouldn't collapse on me, or even collapse at all. But just like how natural disasters might strike anytime, what could not happen? 

放假應該是很輕鬆的，不是嗎？

但我好像輕鬆不起來！！！

需要整理的東西，想要做的事情，全部堆積如山。現在我真的不知道從何下手。。。

Nah not hate. 

I shouldn't be blogging because I have to mug/practice for Japanese test this Saturday, two 40% examinations next week, and guest performance on next Sunday.

It's not like I want to type in italic. 

Sigh. Was just about to blog about how I have zero tolerance these few days. They say the amount of stress one has is positively related to how easily the person can be irritated. 

Yes I was irritated at the italic button a moment ago. 

我們不一樣，但我在你身上看到自己。

在別人眼中你自信滿滿，沒有甚麼事難得倒你。但他們都沒發現你眼神偶爾閃過的慌。在發現你的過去後，我更加肯定我看到的不是錯覺。你的一舉一動，其實都經過安排。有些人天生就散發著自信，但你和我都知道我們不是那樣的人。內心深處的那份自卑，努力用自信掩蓋，只有同類才能看穿和了解。

在別人眼中你一意孤行，沒有甚麼事阻止得了你。但他們都沒發現你眼神透露的孤單無助。不喜歡被約束的個性（這點跟我不是很像），在沒有選擇權力的情況下，難免會想要自由。但你和我都知道，得到自由的代價，就只有犧牲，犧牲，再犧牲。雖然你現在的自由其實不完全是你的決定，但至少你解脫了。我想問，如果你有決定權，你還會走這條路嗎？